25
Aug 10

Speedlights….

The use of speedlights is a great way to create high impact photos, recently I’ve used speedlights for a few different shoots. The general set up I use involves 2 speedlights on stands controlled remotely with a Nikon SU800, this gives wireless infra red control, you still need line of site but off camera flash allows you to be really creative. Along side the 2 flash units I have a collection of Honl gels, they attach using honl Velcro straps, great pieces of kit allowing gels to be put on and taken of with speed. A bit of extra colour can really give the shot that wow factor. To set up the shot normally takes about 5 minutes, getting the flashes in the right position, visualizing the shot, I get the client in for a quick test shot and we’re good to go.

These first shots are of Sonny Wharton he is a professional DJ and the images from the shoot were for promotional use by him and his agent at Strong Hold Artists. We spent about 3 hours on a Sunday afternoon going to several locations in Shrewsbury and getting a varied collection of shots, we went to 3 different locations, under a railway bridge, the Shrewsbury column and a pedestrian subway, we got some great shots at each location.

This first shot was under the railway bridge. I had an SB900 to my left set to 200mm, this will be the key light, the great thing about the new SB900 is you can zoom the flash up to 200mm this gives you a smaller area of light so you can really focus it in on your subject, by getting Sonny into position and angling the SB900 so it was pointing down his nose at 200mm I new it would hit him square on in the right place. The second flash a smaller SB600 I had over to the right, this would provide a backlight and by adding a blue honl filter it would give the image that extra punch. I zoomed the SB600 out to 100mm this would give a larger pool of light covering more of the wall, at the same time only a small amount will spill onto Sonny and what does will be over powered by the focused flash of light from the key light.

This is a diagram of how the flashes were set up.


The next photo i selected from the days shots is this one of Sonny stood in front of the Column by the Shirehall in Shrewsbury.

Again for this shot I used both flashes, the SB900 for the key light and SB600 providing the back light, I had my 18 – 70mm lens at 18mm and lay down on the floor with the camera on the floor, the wide angle of the lens and looking up from below I’m able to really play with the perspective of the column in the back ground, using the trees to the right and the column to frame sonny against the sky in the back ground. By having the backlight lined up behind Sonny it really picks him up and lifts him out of the photo, if the backlight wasn’t being used he would blend into the background allot more, I’ve even had a few people ask if I added him to the photo using Photoshop and No we were definitely there but that’s the impact you need, the subject of the photo should be what your eyes are drawn too.

A Sketch of the lighting setup we used at the Column.

I’m still learning all the time and I really enjoy these type of shoots as it gives me chance to practice and try out new things. Great sources to learn from are The Strobist a great blog that also has a massive Flickr group. My favourite however has to be the master of photography Damien Lovegrove, I have watched lots of his DVDs and enjoy reading the articles he writes for Photo Pro magazine, most of the new skills i pick up are from his tutoring whether its DVDs or reading. I’m also booked on a few of his courses over the coming months to really start to push myself on technically. Damien also has a great blog prophotonut.


06
May 10

Video Editing…

Video editing is another passion i have that ties in well to my photography, i first found an enjoyment for video editing on tour in Iraq. Most units have some one or in most cases more than one person that ends up tinkering with windows movie maker or other software to put together a montage of video footage of there tour, it’s a good way to pass time when your bored of watching the same films over and over again during down time.

The first video i made was a video of our public order training we had before deploying to Iraq and i really enjoyed making it and it went down well with the guys. My first taste was with Windows movie maker, you get that as standard with windows but as usual i wanted to do more so tracked down Adobe Premiere Pro… At the end of my Iraq tour i created this video with Premiere Pro, and put it onto a DVD for all the guys from the company to use at home and show there family’s. It had full DVD menu with outtakes and other extra videos.

Coy video from Iraq Telic 7 from Mike Hubbard on Vimeo.

Since then I kept tinkering with videos and last year when i eventually made the move to Mac before my tour to Afghanistan i invested in a copy of Final Cut Studio, i figured I’d be making another video of that tour so why not learn some new software at the same time and make a better video! So through reading lots of books and following video tutorials i learnt my way around final cut. Gathered together about 10,000 photos and videos from the company, everyones footage from 6 months. Picked out all the good bits and made this next video…

Herrick 10 – 4 Mercian – Normandy company Tour DVD from Mike Hubbard on Vimeo.


07
Apr 10

How the Army, Afghanistan and Iraq changed my photography forever…

After a few years of really developing my taste for photography and learning a few bits and pieces I ended up getting deployed to Iraq in 2005, you can read all about that at the very start of this blog but what I wanted to tell you about now was how my deployments with the Army really spurred on my photography and assisted in the development of my skills.

The amount of time I think to myself I really should get out and practice my photography, or I read a magazine and think how I’d really like to try that technique out. But the thought of going out and taking photos of some flowers or finding something to take pictures of just doesn’t appeal to me at all! I’ve always thought if you’ve got something good to take photos of that’s half the battle because you’re interested and really want to get a great photo of what you’re looking at. You can really get creative, I’m lucky these days as I have constantly got jobs on that involve me taking photos, I always enjoy something new to photograph and I’m always trying new things out wanting to improve my pictures each time. But before I had the luxury of people requesting me to take photos for them, when my first tour came around it opened up a whole new world of photography! The one thing war and conflict has is alot of stuff to take photos of! Journalists are always trying to get out in amongst the action get imbeded with our troops on the ground, that’s where the best oportunitys to take photos are, the pictures that get remembered and make the headlines. They are photos of history as it happens.

My first deployment was to Iraq. I took with me a Fuji z3 compact camera and a Fuji s6500. I carried the Z3 with me all the time as its pocket size and the s6500 lived in my daysack (small rucksack) itself not a big camera and could wihtstand a good battering but it had great optics a built in 10x zoom. Both cameras provided great quality photos and video. At this time i’d considered getting an SLR but didn’t know enough about them and couldn’t afford one either!

This first image was achieved using my Fuji Z3 compact camera. As it was night time and I was stood under a spot light I realised the light was casting some great shadows. I had no tripod so put my camera on a wall and moved it round until it framed the shot. I set the timer, put the camera on night shot with the flash turned off,  set it to Black and White. I pushed the shutter release button and as it counted down moved back into position and held the pose. After a few tries i ended up with this shot.

 

I took this photo with my Fuji s6500, being a half slr you have control over the apature or shutter but not both at the same time. I used shutter priority in this instance with no flash. Again i had no tripod so i put the camera on the bonnet of a landrover, you can use any vehicle it doesn’t have to be a land rover, set the shutter to 10 seconds and asked Warner and Fitz to stay perfectly still! I used the timer again so i didn’t cause vibration to the shot when pushing the button with my finger. Then when the shutter opened i painted Warner and Fitz with a torch for 10 Seconds. After a few trys with them moving i eventually got them to stay still!

Leading up to the end of my time in Iraq i was enjoying taking photos so much i finally bit the bullet and purchased an SLR, a Fuji S3 Pro, i stuck with Fuji as i’d grown used to them and trusted it would work for me. I still didn’t know alot about them but new i’d learn.

The years went by and as I explained earlier I grew in my photography and was learning all the time, then came Afghanistan, I was mobilised in Jan 2009 for a summer tour of Afghanistan, again the tours explained earlier in this blog. At this point I’d had my Fuji SLR for just over 3 years and had been toying with the idea of getting a new camera but due to the expense I kept putting it of. I realised this tour would be a great opportunity to capture some amazing images so I decided to take my camera even thought I new with the sand and conditions we’d be operating in it probably wouldn’t survive I didn’t care. I just wanted to get some great photos if it meant destroying a grands worth of camera then so be it! And that’s exactly what happened, i got some amazing photos, my camera made it through the whole tour and just when we got back to the UK the company commander asked me to take a company photo and my camera packed in the very day but at least it did the whole tour!

That’s a selection from 100′s of photos I took over the 6 months we were away, it really gave me chance to experiment and learn as I said before I find it hard to practice photography unless I’ve got some thing really interesting to take a photo of and every minute of every day I was surrounded by the surreal, the beautiful and demanding. There are so many images but the 3 bellow I feel show the key skills I developed whilst there. Also these 3 images are 3 of 6 images that won me the title of British Army Amateur photographer 2009.

  Manual focus, up till my time in Afghanistan I’d always relied heavily on auto focus but with time on my hands to experiment and developing images in my head of what I want to achieve from a shot I realised that auto focus didn’t achieve that for me. This image of the little girl, I was using my 18 – 200mm Nikon VR lens zoomed into about 100mm on the lowest aperture I could have on aperture priority. By lowering the aperture as low as I could this will give me the shallowest depth of field possible. Putting anything behind or in front of the focus line out of focus. The smaller the aperture f number the thinner the focus line, in this case it was f6.2 not extremely small but as the background was far off it was small enough to put it out of focus. By manually tweaking the focus I could get the girl perfectly focused into the shot, allot easier then with auto focus as it may get the girl in focus but not how I want it. With manual focus you control the image outcome yourself. It’s allot more satisfying outcome.

This shot was making use of all the practice I’ve had taking photos of flashing lights and torches in the dark as I talked about earlier. To achieve this photo there were allot of factors that made it hard. Firstly it was pitch black and I had to set the camera up with minimal light, not a problem to set up but when it came to focusing, the auto focus wouldn’t work as it’s to dark. So I had to estimate the distance from the camera to the mortar and put my trust in the distance on the lens focus ring. If you look on your lens the distance between you and the subject is marked on the ring so in this situation it’s your only guide as you can’t see anything through the view finder to see if it’s in focus. The next problem is knowing they may only be firing a couple of rounds so getting the ISO, Aperture and Shutter settings right were an estimated guess. The shutter wasn’t a problem as I was using a remote shutter release on a tripod. I had the camera in blub mode, if you turn you shutter all the way to the end eventually you’ll get to bulb mode and that holds the shutter open for the duration you hold the shutter button down. I new that before they fired the guy firing would shout “Firing!” then push the trigger, so I just waited with my finger poised on the remote release as soon as he shouted “firing” I opened the shutter and kept it open for about 5 seconds. After 4 attempts this one came out and this one was actually the first one.

 


27
Mar 10

New Blog! So to begin… “Why Mike Hubbard photography?”

 If you want to skip to all the photography tips and advice just scroll through to the italic bold sections.

Hi! and welcome to my blog… Honestly I’m really not sure what direction this blog is going to end up taking but I’d like to use it to begin with, to explain a bit about me and why I’ve started up “Mike Hubbard Photography”. I hope this will give you an idea of the inspiration my photography is drawing from and how my life experience has really brought about this new venture…. People talk about a photographers style and i can see it myself when i see some photographers work and most really do have a distinctive style. At the moment  I personally feel I’m still finding my way and discovering my own style through trying lots of new things, it’s also exciting to be trying lots of new avenues, having a thirst for knowledge and new skills… I’d like to think as my experience grows i will be able to share some useful technical insights, lessons learned and also share the details of some of my more interesting photography experiences  through this blog… I’ve already had a few overseas experiences more prominent being Iraq and Afghanistan… but first, what really started photography for me…

The clubs, more definitively promoting and running “Invasion” an event me and Dene ran from the Buttermarket and we even managed to pull of a few  whopping Invasion events at Eden in Ibiza… but that’s how my love afair with photography started well that and the clubbing  photography beast that is www.dontstayin.com i’ll cover that in a bit .

Question? How can you sell something to some one if they don’t know what it looks like? well you can but it’s hard! If you’ve got a picture it’s 10 times easier to sell as the customer can see what it is they’re buying! So i started trying my best to get as many great photo’s as i could to stick all over the internet and show people what a great night it was!

Back then i had a fuji compact, point and shoot but i started to play around with the night setting and slow flash. It’s worth trying if your using a compact camera as you can get some really nice affects considering you using a compact. These photos are from about 2003 so a long time ago and camera’s have come on leaps and bounds since but the principles are still the same.

 

 If your in a club and your compact camera has a slow sync flash setting, turn it on and point it at your freinds, take the photo as normal, the flash will go off you’ll look at the photo and it’s all blury! which is pants! because you’ve held the camera in one place pointing it at your friends. What you need to do is as soon as the flash goes off sweep your camera away from your friends towards the ceiling, the floor, any where but get your friends out of the cameras field of view. For a split second after the flash goes of the camera is actually still recording the photo so if you still have it pointing at your friends it picks up all the motion and lights from your hands shaking but if you sweep it away you’ll just get some light trails like this photo.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

 

So that’s how it started and the catalyst was www.dontstayin.com, back in early 2000 DSI was a new site, a young clubbing community with a niche about explode. They encouraged members to register as spotters, which involved receiving dontstayin.com cards through the post to give out to everyone they took a photo of, they then used your card to find the site, register and find there photo. The Army of spotters then got ranked on the amount of people spotted and as usual an online community is naturally keen on rank and status so battle commenced, spotters appeared everywhere and DSI grew and grew!

The best part was all the people viewing your photos and then receiving feedback on your good ones, it’s always nice to hear when people think a photo is good and if you were lucky JohnB and the DSI team would find one of your photos and like it so much it would go into one of the websites much desired front page spots and considering the site is now viewed by 100′s of thousands of people that’s a nice touch! With all these photographers knocking about in one space there was inevitably a strong contingent of Professionals or just very keen amateurs, a new member status was born the DSI “Pro Spotter” As my passion for getting great photo’s grew my photography improved and i began to make new friends who were also out spotting for DSI, we’d start sharing tips and tricks and a my skills grew my photo’s improved and eventually! I was taken into the ranks of the DSI Pro Spotters!

This was a front page photo on DSI

Once i’d got my new SLR camer a Fuji S3 pro, a Nikon 17-80mm lense and was in the ranks of the DSI Pro spotters i really started to move on in leaps and bounds! Getting out and about with my camera to events when ever i could, i made friends with Pat-Menatwork through seeing him spotting at events and he was always happy to share tips and advice with me and all the little pointers really helped me along! One particular piece of advice when i first got my SLR i always remembered as it was before I totally understood the Shutter Apature relationship and as i’ve learnt more over the years the reasoning behind this came clear.

Front page DSI, example of the technique explained below...

From the oracle of Pat a tip to get you started full SLR in a club “Get you apature as low as you can, iso 4 – 600, try a 1/4 to 1/2 second exposure, then when you trigger the shutter and flash, as soon as it goes off turn your camera in a circle or move it of smoothly in a different direction.” After a few trys at this it opened up a whole new depth of affects and hocus pocus for me. This basic start point is the same as the tip from before with your compact and the slow sync setting. The challenge with club photography is it’s dark! and if you just rely on your flash you’ll white everyones faces out get lots of the wall, floor and any other flat surface you soaked with flash, you’ll get none of the atmosphere but if you want to take in all the flashing lights and colours and really capture the atmosphere. To do that you need to take more light into the camera but not by adding more flash! These 2 examples i’ve been talking about are working on the same principle of slowing the shutter down so the camera is taking in more ambient light or flashing lights dependant where you are. By slowering the shutter speed you can’t avoid movement blur without a tripod and you can’t carry one of those round a club! So use the blur to your advantage… The flash goes off and burns the image of whatever the flash hits into your camera, then for the split second after your camera is still recording the image/light, becasue the flash goes of in a milli second no movement is picked up, it just freezes the action but if you don’t sweep you camera away from the subject every bit of vibration in your hand will now blur the image but if you sweep it in the direction of some lights then it will just pick up some sweeping trails leaving the initial flashed images nice and clean with the trails painted over it in the split seconds following.

As the photography progressed my interest grew and in the Summer over 2008 a  me and Pat wanted to have some fun and try some organised shoots out so we had people to take photo’s of after all to practice you need people to take photos of! So we needed willing volunteers to act as models for us on some random countryside shoots, although we were happy to shoot any where but being in Shropshire, the countryside was calling! Thankfully in sleepy Shrewsbury we weren’t short of those willing to get a bit crazy for the camera. On these weekend shoots we spent time experimenting and practicing techniques, we’d ask the movels to bring along any random props, outfits and objects as they could so we could let our imaginations run riot and get creaitve… These shoots were alot of fun for us and the models again Pat was always providing great pointers and guidance. This is a video made by VJ Nutcracker who joined us on a shoot with his video camera…

 

   

DSI Photoshoot – 10 May 08 from VJ NUTCRACKER on Vimeo.

The toss brothers fending off a hord of Ghosts!

 

This shot of Edwin and Tarquwin Toss fending off a hord of ghosts I was particularly pleased with during the one shoot as i’ve always liked slow shutter affects at night with lights but never tried it in the daylight. As you can see from this image it needed alot of correcting in photoshop after because of the long exposure in the daylight the image is completely blown out with light. As it was so long ago i can’t remeber the exact set up but looking at the image data The apature was pushed all the way up to f.22 with a 0.3 of a second shutter time in daylight that’s alot. From what i know now, i could use a Neutral Density filter over the lense and that would allow me a longer exposure time as it limits the ammount of light getting in dependent on it’s size, only by small ammounts but it’s may be enough to bring the exposure down to something better so the image is less blown out and white. Maybe something i’ll try this summer!

We also did a couple of Night shoots aroung the same time and we took the opportunity to take some profile shots for our newly formed hard dance production guise P.A.S, with the use of 30 second exposures, a couple of flash guns and a bridge over the motorway we got some really great shots!

 

To achieve these shots, we used a tripod and a 30 second exposure using Fuji S3 pro SLR. We set up on a bridge that crosses the M54, making sure there were no street lights as they would cover everything in an orange glow during this type of shot. As we were shooting in pitch black we got the tripod set up and then judged the distance between the camera and were we will stand so you can set the focus, auto focus won’t work as its pitch black. Once that’s set manually take a quick shot with flash and check it’s in focus. Once it’s in focus remember to stand back in same spot when you take the photo. Set the shutter to 30seconds, that’s the longest you can go on SLR’s before it changes to blub mode and then you need a remote shutter release to hold down for the exposure time. Set it to 30 seconds, ample time. Get you flash gun in your hand as you’re going to manually trigger the flash during this photo. Get the subject to strike a pose on the pre focused spot in front of the camera, I set the shutter onto timer as then you don’t even get any slight movement on the camera when you push the shutter release. Push the shutter release, wait for the timer to do its thing once you hear the shutter click open you’ve got 30 seconds to paint with what ever light you have i.e. your flash but you can even use torches, lighters etc. The lights from the cars on the motorway are being taken in by the camera already. Now it’s time to flash your subject, what ever you flash will be recorded. If you look at the top photo all four of us were flashed individually but after flashing each person they would move out of shot and the next one would move in estimating where about there head will be in the picture, obviously this took a lot of try’s to get everyone in the right place but it’s fun and worth it. Moving around isn’t a problem, if your subjects are moving about in front of the camera this won’t come out on the image as there’s no light on them but as soon as light hits them where ever they are that image will be recorded.

 

Next… How the Army transformed my photography to where i am now…..


30
Jun 09

The big move south…

So what will the next chapter hold….. Well that’s a good question and it could have a very interesting and somewhat intense final story…. We can’t judge how this will pan out yet but the signs are all there starting from here…

On my return from R&R things changed rapidly, I’d heard bits and pieces of info from the bloke’s girlfriends whilst on R&R and there had been a lot of rumours flying about before I left. One was we might move to Lashkar Gar, Helmand’s capital, to do what we were unsure, one rumour was we were going to man the sangers freeing up the welsh guards who are already based there, allowing them to get out on the ground more as they won’t be using man power to cover the guard, guard for 3 months! That was a horrific thought for us all! Since finding out about the tour right up till now we all wanted to do the job infantry are meant to do, meet the Taliban head on… and the thought of seeing the tour out with nothing but stag was deeply demoralising to us all. Bastion could have been a lot worse we have been doing some good stuff with IRT a lot less guard than we could have been given but seeing and hearing all the fighting going on elsewhere in Helmand but not being on a task to get involved was frustrating… However now it seems we have our wish….

My flight ended up getting me back into Bastion at around 3.30am after the long haul from Bryze to Kandahar to Bastion. I had found out before I flew the platoon was definitely moving out and that they may have already moved. It was late at night so I couldn’t find out what was happening, I had a horrible feeling they may have moved and the tent we were in may have been taken over by other people leaving the question where will I sleep and what’s going on! When I got to our tent it was pitch black I put my torch on and everything was different all the flags and pods were gone and there was kit and boxes everywhere! Instantly I thought they’d moved and there were loads of other people staying in the tent already, I got my torch and scanned around the bodies and luckily saw wickys bold head and his England duvet so thankfully I new they were all still here but something was occurring! I got myself settled on my bed and slept for a couple of hours. I was woke by mark at about 8am and told we were going to Lash and all kit needed to be packed asap, the boxes and kit every where I saw in the dark were ammo tins and boxes, a lot of ammo tins and boxes! All my comfy stuff was to be packed into the MFO boxes by 10am! We won’t see anything in that box again for the rest of the tour, also I had to pack everything we need to live in a FOB for the next 3 months into my berghan, we were allowed one hold all between two for any luxury items we may want for when we return from the FOB, this to me was a right headache as I don’t travel light especially with all my cameras and techy gear I like to have around. I found room for all my cameras and laptop then had enough left to pack 7 pairs of socks and 7 pairs of undies into my berghan along with the relevant shirts, trousers and equipment.

The excitement was clear to see with everyone, we still didn’t know fully what was going to happen when we got there as we are mushrooms (kept in the dark and fed shit) for a lot of the time and the rumour mill always makes things worse, rumours do more to dent the moral of troops than facts most of the time. One things was certain we were moving to Lashker Gar as part of a massive CLP (combat logistics patrol) in the morning, I was also taken off by the platoon commander and told I was being put into the post of section 2ic for the duration which I was very happy about as I’ve been ready to do that for years but seem to injure my ankle every time I go on the pass of fail course! This means I’ll be acting Lance Corporal instead of rifleman/Private. We had our orders in the evening and then tried to pack the 13 vehicles we were taking down to Lash, with tonnes of bombs and bullets, stuff to set up the PB as well as us and our own equipment it was a long task and a lot of kit had to get binned as there just wasn’t enough room!

In the morning it was time for the CLP, you could sense the air of “finally its happening” and an obvious apprehension amongst everyone, some were more openly worried than the bravado filled remains of the company but that’s to be expected without fear people are dangerous. We’d all heard about the CLP’s they go out in a big snake across the desert from point A to point B getting shot at and hit by road side bombs along there way, the last one had 3 small arms attacks, 2 IDF attacks and 1 IED strike. (People firing bullets at them, mortars firing at them and a road side bomb detonating taking out a vehicle) and new the possibility of that was almost certain as there was 80 -100 vehicles going and we were travelling through the most dangerous areas in the province I think the reality of what we were actually doing settled in when we were forming up ready to go, it was an impressive site to see just our 13 vehicles ready to go on the journey south, bristling with GPMG machine guns and 50 cals mounted on the WMIks, then there was the rest of the convoy us being a tiny spec on the monster it was, a mix of American muscle machines and the best the British have in theatre, Vikings, Mastiffs and Jackal, with at least one GMPG machine gun on every vehicle as well as 50cal and grenade machine guns. Then on top of all the infantry machines you’ve got all the armoured drops vehicles carrying the stores for all the different stops along the way. Finally we were part of the war in Afghanistan! After a quick few words from the brigade commander welcoming us to our new role within the battle group, we new we’d been accepted, Normandy Company, the TA Company was as a fighting force taken into the ranks of the brigade to carry out an infantry-fighting role.

The first few kilometres of the drive down covered the area of desert we patrol regularly so we were all pretty happy with where we were going and that threat level associated with the area itself. We drove through the desert until we got to the edge of the area we new, at this point all the vehicles parked up in long columns waiting for the darkness to fall, 80 – 100 vehicles all parked up in the middle of the desert quite a site to see, especially as the sun was going down and the darkness crept in. Pushed out providing all round protection were some Viking vehicles (tracked vehicles, 2 tracked pods linked together like 2 small armoured caravans) just cresting the skyline with the sun setting behind them, me and Nick both said it would be really nice to camp out here, it was so peaceful just a shame it’s a war zone!

In my vehicle, a vixen, I was commander, Mark was driver and “H” was doing top cover with his minimi machine gun. Also we carried t interpreters and loads of kit, there was no room in the back at all, “H” was stood on stuff and interpreters whilst doing top cover. Once darkness fell, all the vehicles were in darkness and night vision turned on. The columns set of one after the other, we were in the middle still about 2 kilometres from the lead vehicle and the last vehicles were at least 1 kilometre behind, we’d all had chance to get some scoff in us for the long drive ahead and the night vision devices had all been tested and set up. Driving and commanding was very hard as we were using monocle night vision, which is attached to your helmet and is only over 1 eye. So your squeezing one eye closed and looking through the other. If you try doing that for 5 minutes now without even having to focus on a green screen you’ll find your eye aches. So after an hour Marks eyes and head were hurting let alone after the full nights drive! Without the night vision you can’t see anything, in the desert there’s no ambient light from streets and towns and the moon wasn’t bright at all, so the only way to follow the vehicle in front is with night vision, as commander I was keeping an eye on the road with my night vision to help Mark when necessary but I could stop for a few seconds and rest my eye but Mark couldn’t. We needed to follow the same route as the convoy as that track has been cleared of Mines and IED’s. After 50 vehicles weighing tonnes a piece had driven over the same piece of desert its pretty obvious where the track is as the hard dirt and rock of the desert has been churned into a very soft fine sand track, which is very easy to get stuck in as its so chewed up and soft. Drive the remaining 50 vehicles over that track and they will start getting stuck which is what happened, we stopped every kilometre while a vehicle was pulled out after getting itself dug in, at one point one of our Vixen vehicles got stuck, a WIMIK tried to pull it out that got stuck, our Panther pulled both of them out then got stuck itself, a big American vehicle came up the column to pull the Panther out as its to big for us to pull out, an that vehicle and that got stuck as well! So we sat for a good hour while this all happened, we just needed was some Benny hill music in the background and it would have been quite comical.

After we’d been going for a few hours, my GPS was indicating 2.9km to the bridge that will be taking us over the canal into Nad Ali itself, the “Green Zone” and we stopped again. We were sat for at least an hour but me and mark were getting quite good at passing time, when we left bastion we were told each man should have 8 days rations then that changed to 2 days, so we read between the lines made sure we had lots! We had a couple of ration boxes each in the cab with more in the back and I also had some American MRE rations knocking about as well! We were “grazing” as Mark called it, every time we stopped! In the UK if you were going to eat rations without cooking them you can do it but they aren’t going to taste very good at all but in the desert the rations are constantly at a temperature that you can eat them fresh out the bag, warm! If you want them piping hot you just put them in the foot well leaning against the gears in the middle, give it an hour and they are HOT! You can cook food with no cooker in the cab of a vixen so you can imagine how hot it is in there, I reckon its probably 50 degrees average in the vixen… We continued to sit and wait, then the boss came over the PRR “All vehicle commanders we’re going to be here a while they’ve found at least 7 IED’s get your drivers to turn off there night vision and rest there eyes for a bit” So I told mark to get his head down, “H” had been stood on interpreters doing top cover for about 8 hours already so I told him to come down for half hour and I’ll go up top for a bit. Once I got up on top cover I could see in the distance to our front shadows of the vehicles forming the long snake bending round then cresting the skyline before disappearing into the darkness for at least 2 more kilometre to where the IED’s had been found by the lead vehicles. In the darkness you could also see the dull glow of Nad Ali, Nad Ali borders the desert with a big canal forming an impassable border with only a few bridges. It stretches the length of Nad Ali, one side is the dry desert and the other side is the deep green undergrowth and fields irrigated from the canal. This area has seen some of the worst fighting in Helmand; it stretches the length of Helmand following the Helmand River. From the glow I saw the flash from an explosion and then tracer fire bouncing up into the sky, instantly scanning around with my night vision, an IED blast normally triggers an ambush with small arms fire and RPG’s, although I do pity them if they do open up on us as they’ll have thousands of rounds flying at them in seconds from all the weapon systems in this convoy! Nothing happened for about another 10 minutes, I got “H” to jump back up top with his Minimi so then we were all in place if we had to move in a hurry. We didn’t move for about 4 hours! it turned out a Viking had been hit by an IED, luckily no one had been hurt but the vehicle was out of action. Looking at my GPS again once we were moving it said 1.5km to the bridge, we’d moved 1.4km in 5 hours! And Mark had eaten 24hrs rations!

At dawn as the sun came up, eventually we moved over the bridge into Nad Ali, the night vision was binned and the drivers were happy! We new what to expect but the dramatic change in environment was still quite surprising, from the rough arid desert, we crossed a large fast flowing canal into a lush green filled area, the track we followed down the canal was lined with large trees and thick bushes, it reminds me of the greenery you see in Spain but thicker and more dense with a hint of tall green grass you’d expect to see in the jungle. I’m sure the other lads felt it too, crossing into Nad Ali where all the major fighting’s been going on made me pick up my game, it felt more dangerous, I think its knowing that we could get smashed at any moment, rather than in the desert round Bastion knowing it possible but not very likely, two very different ends of the spectrum.

We drove for a further 3 hours and crossed Nad Ali and its network of canals that irrigate the area, most of the main transit routes are along these canals. We lost more and more vehicles from the convoy as they stopped at there various bases. Eventually we were on the outskirts of Lashkar Gar, to enter the town we have to cross the Bolun Bridge as the town itself is the other side of the Helmand River… The river is massive and crystal blue! Its an amazing site, all the locals are in there washing and the kids are messing around in the water, once we cross the bridge wham there’s people every where every inch on the side of the road is taken up by market stalls, selling everything from motorbikes to drift wood and metal out of the river… kids walking round with a couple of melons or ancient cans of coke! We made it through the urban sprawl without incident and got a peak at the new area we will be working in… Once we finally arrived at Lash it was time to find out where we’ll be living and just what will we be doing for the next 3 months….


17
Jun 09

R&R & The tour so far in a short video….

The tour so far – Herrick 10 from Mike Hubbard on Vimeo.

The above video is a short video i put together whilst home on R&R for 2 weeks, its been great to get home and see my family and friends and get out on the beer! something I’ve missed! Its been a great 2 weeks but now I’m ready to get back and finish off what started back in January! 3 months left to push….

I suspect if i had a family and girlfriend I’d be less inclined to  get back as I imagine R&R can be a double edged sword, its great to see your better half and kids but it will no doubt re-ignite all the feelings you’ve spent the last 3 months gaining control over and then you have to go through all the goodbyes again. Its relatively easy for me get everyone in the pub, drink and everyone drifts off home and a quick good bye is all that’s needed…

So what will the next 3 months hold for me and the rest of Normandy company?? Once i know i’ll be sure to let you know, although i do sense some change coming on my return to the sandpit….


29
May 09

Some photos…

(An AK variant being carried by an Afghan National Army soldier on a joint VCP)

(2 Afghan soldiers on the VCP)

(ANA soldier with RPG providing cover on VCP search)

(Bellow are 2 shots of a mortar being fired from a small ANA checkpoint we used as a patrol base for a couple of days)



22
May 09

As the pace picks up…

We’ve been here about 2 months and it’s been a busy 2 months! We’ve taken over the tasks from the previous force protection company here at Bastion, we’ve linked up with the RAF regiment and RAF police, with a flight/platoon of each working with us, established a new rotation round the tasks to utilise all hands the best way we can. At the moment it roughly works out we do 3 weeks of patrols tasks and a week on guard, obviously the guard task is the least liked and the patrols is what we’re here for, getting out on the ground amongst the local populous. Thrown in the mix we also cover the IRT task, this is basically going out with the medics on a Chinook to provide infantry protection when they get crashed out to pick up any casualties/fatalities.
The R&R has started now and things have got harder as we have less blokes to do the tasks which means more work for everyone else, it’ll be interesting to see how that works out, it was tight on some tasks already! the cracks may start to show in some as the pressure mounts, I’ll give you an example of a week I spent on patrols and IRT.
We started off a week of patrols, I’m a driver and at this time was only able to drive the wmik (see picture) due to Army red tape and the world’s obsession with health and safety but that’s another story! Any way before I drift of subject there’s only a few of us able to drive the wmik’s to start with. This meant that me and Mark had to drive every evening patrol and others had the days to do, as well as patrols we also had IRT to cover. The night patrols end up lasting on average about 12hours, sometimes longer… on return from the patrols in the morning we would either go onto rest for about 6-7 hours before going back out for another 12 hours or IRT, this worked out every other day and when you get IRT in the day you know your only going to get about 2 hours sleep as you always get a call out but with IRT its worth sacrificing the sleep… then straight into the night patrol… On IRT you may have to witness some horrible things picking up people who are severally wounded or even dead, it’s a tough thing for some but 1. Most importantly you’re helping them 2. Your getting out all over Helmand doing an important job and seeing things a lot of people never will 3. Its exciting, the trait that all of us have an excitement for danger. Any incidents in Helmand we go out to with IRT, all the recent fatalities and serious casualties you’ve seen on the news, some of our guys will have flown out to pick them up and help.
One particular call I went on was at mid day, we got the call on the radio, grabbed our kit and jumped on the wolf, you get a free ticket to thrash the rovers round Bastion when on an IRT shout, so we I end up flying over to the flight line flashing the lights and beeping the horn, getting people out of the way and keeping the thing on the road at best speed! Once on the flight line 9 times out of 10 the Chinook is already ready to go, the various teams and us all clambering on at the loadies signal. We’ll pile on get in our seats and we’re off… The Chinooks are an awesome piece of kit, flying low over the contours, the rear door wide open sun and heating beating through the back door with the whop whop whop of the Chinook, the loady sat on the tail ramp with the gun, looking out the back… the terrain changes dramatically fast as we’re swooping low over the ground towards the pick up point, as we leave bastion its just open rocky desert with small hills to contour over, then we’ll start passing over compounds with lush green and pink square fields of poppies which get denser and denser, eventually we’ll cross the muddy brown of a river and bang it changes to a mass of green and packed in compounds with tight alley ways and dirt roads between the compounds, trees lining paths almost like you’d expect to see in Spain, “The green zone” named purely for the reason its so lush and green, I couldn’t believe how dense it was at first site, compound after compound small tracks, trees, bushes and alleyways everywhere, no wonder its so difficult to fight in. We eventually landed at a small FOB and picked up one streture casualty it was a small boy who’d got caught by a mine, we carried him on and the medics started to work on him, he was very young probably about 8, his dad came on the chopper too and he was pretty shaken himself yet at the same time obviously amazed to be on one of these massive helicopters they must see flying around all the time… we pick up a lot of locals and children on IRT….

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As the week went by it got to the stage we were heading out on night patrol tired already after getting about 4 hours sleep in 2 days with 13hrs of driving and darkness to come, on top of that it was still cold here at night and the wmik is totally open so you get the wind and rain hitting you and there’s no escape for the whole patrol… I know what will happen in about a months time I’ll be moaning its to hot! Although its not really moaning, I knew it was going to be like this and it’s the job we’re here to do. In terms of sleep it was a tough week….
hubbywmik smallGetting out on patrol, people would pay stupid money to do the off road driving we do here day in day out… as soon as we leave camp there’s no roads, no tracks just desert, so you drive any where you want obviously bearing in mind the threat of mines etc. When I say desert though its not the lush sand dunes everyone always thinks of, imagine those pants beaches we have all over our coast which are just loads of small rocks, the land here is made up of all those rocks mixed with sand on the high ground and low as far as the eye can see. When we drive down into the wadi’s you get really soft fine sand that’s easy to get stuck in if you don’t drive carefully, if you drive carelessly you’ll end up digging yourself in. The worst is when it rains, after all these wadi’s are there to channel water all be it only a few times a year, the fine sand turns to mud and no matter what vehicle your driving you will get stuck if you venture into it. We ended up getting stuck driving after a rain fall, we got a shout from another call sign asking for help as they were stuck, so we high tailed it in there direction and both our vehicles got stuck as well! We spent the next few hours digging them out!

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—- Its been a couple of weeks since I wrote that and things have been a bit tougher since then, we’ve expanded the area we’re working in which means we’re covering a lot more millage and we’ve started doing foot patrols, in 9 days I’ve done 3 foot patrols, 1 night, 2 day, each about 7 kilometres, that may not sound much but when your carrying between 70 – 100lbs (varies dependant on weapons and kit carried per man) in 40 degrees that’s a tough tab, especially as your trying to remain switched on to everything around you as you need to be ready to fight, in between these foot patrols and the normal vehicle patrols over the 9 days we’ve been on some additional training, we’ve done 3 Personal fitness tests the Army’s annual fitness assessment, 1.5mile run best effort (I got 10mins), push ups sit ups, also we’ve done 2 CFT another of the army’s annual fitness tests, the first CFT was with 35lb and was 6 miles completed on 1hr 15mins. The second was an 8 miler with 50lbs completed in 1hr 57mins after we came in from the 7k night patrol! The surprising thing was we were all dreading the CFT after no sleep and tired bodies and blisters but we all said after we finished the CFT was easier than the patrols as we were carrying less weight! we weren’t wearing helmet, body armour or carrying a rifle. That brought it home how tough the foot patrols are out here.

We’ve also started doing longer vehicle patrols so we can cover a larger area more efficiently, ranging between 24 – 48hrs but soon to be longer. We went our for our first 24hr patrol this week, covering more densely populated compound areas now as well as vast expanses of rocks and sand! Stopping off at various Afghan National Army camps and check points along the way. We talk to the locals to get general atmospherics and any info we can it’s a crazy to think the Taliban are there amongst them and we don’t know, some times we even find out they’re in a compound only a few 100m away. The poppy harvest has finished now so things may start hotting up in more ways than one! The average temp here at the moment is 40 degrees most days… We slept out in the desert under the stars for the first time last night, it was great we parked the vehicles in your typical circling of the wagons affect and got sentries posted. I slept on the floor by the side of my wagon, a ¾ length roll matt, softie jacket and my travel pillow! (Never been anywhere without it best thing I ever brought from boots!) Once I got settled I lay back looking up at the stars, they are amazing you get such clear beautiful nights out here, you can see all the stars the sky has to offer its thick with them, shooting stars are ten a penny you see them all the time. The silence is also deafening you’ve got nothing for miles around just the sound of the local tiny wild life, crickets etc… and the OC snoring! That kind of shattered the moment I was having!

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01
May 09

The beginning of reality….

Hubby on Patrol

We’re finally at camp bastion now, we moved into tents last week that will be our homes for the next 6 months, there’s 9 of us in 1 tent its not exactly the Ritz but its a lot better than some people have here in Helmand… We’ve all been looking forward to moving into our permanent accommodation so we could unpack. Personally I never thought getting my undies out of my bag and putting them on some hang up travel shelves would be so enjoyable! But after living out of a bag since the 4th of January to actually unpack everything has instantly given our tent a nice homely feel! The one major downside to our tent is the air conditioning unit is actually in the tent with us so it makes a constant racket! Most of the other tents have them outside, I’m not sure where the logic is to ours being inside! But that’s the way it is…

It took us 2 days travelling to get from Stone in the UK to Bastion… We were delayed at Brize Norton for about 6 hours… then when we flew into Kandaha we’d missed our C130 to Bastion. We ended up spending the day at Kandahar waiting for the next flights although it wasn’t a bad thing to see how the other half live, Kandahar is a massive Air Base predominantly American with a strong Brit and Multinational element as its where all the fast air fly’s from to get troops on the ground out of the shit!  There’s a lot of shops there American, Dutch, British, German they all have there own areas and there own local touch, so by the Americans you’ve got Burger King, Pizza Hut, Subways etc…

A couple of hours before we were scheduled to fly out Kandahar the camp came under rocket attack, there were about 4 rockets fired into the camp.  I was sat on the loo taking in the graffiti that always ends up on the cubicle walls and doors on operations, blokes get board whilst doing there business, whip out a pen and fight cap badge battles, they normally go along the lines of a witty one liner about a particular regiment or maybe a sketch of some sort. The marines and paras are popular recipients but then the RAF Reg are frequently up there too! Some one replies and it eventually reduces to some one going in a few days later from the regiment in question replying calling them a Nob or something similar… it just goes on and on… but gives you something to read whilst you do your thing.

Anyhow back to the rockets… I was reading a story about An American marine on the toilet wall then all of a sudden I heard that Boom! The noise I recognise so well from the rockets and mortars we used to get into Basra on a weekly basis. I wasn’t flapping, I new the drill, pulled up my kegs and made my way over to the tent to get my body armour and helmet as that was closest, after all I new they never hit anything so there’s nothing to worry about, or so I thought… As I made my way back I heard a “crumph crumph” as 2 more launched, I quickened my pace excepting to hear them roar over head but heard nothing, nothing flying over head and no Boom as they hit home…

they must have been blinds, a blind is a rocket or mortar that goes up, comes down and no boom just hides it self in the ground unexploded… As I got to the tent everyone had already made there way to the concrete shelter outside so I grabbed my body armour and helmet and joined them all hidden away under the concrete. There was a lot of noise from sirens, blue lights flying about and smoke coming up from behind our shelter about 500m away in another camp, fire engines and ambulances were there and sadly it turns out 1 person was killed and about 4 injured, all when I heard that 1st Boom! They weren’t British I think they were Americans from what I was told on the rumour mill. It’s very rare anything gets hit but sadly it seems they were out of luck that evening.

We finally flew to Bastion on a C130 landing very early hours, we got ferried to temporary accommodation and boy were we glad it was temporary, imagine a small hanger with about 200 beds in all full, everyone had a bergan and black holdall so there was no floor space by the beds, the beds were shoulder to shoulder, it was mayhem! We were only there for a couple of days while we had some briefs and a day on the ranges to Zero our weapons. After that we moved onto yet more temporary accommodation… we then spent the next few days going over more range work, the ranges we fire on are just outside the camp so there is a very real threat as your outside the security of the camp, there’s always protection and sentries put out. As we move around the ranges you can see lots of locals wondering about but they’re kept at a distance for general security and the suicide threat. Although we are out in the middle of the desert here and they walk miles to the camp as there’s always stuff left they can use even the wire mesh of the Hesco blast walls get pillaged. Some times they can get some water or food from the troops too. So there are incentives for them to take a walk up here. There main earner though is the brass, empty cases from fired bullets, we always collect the brass after a shoot as we have too hand it all in but there’s always some left and they swoop in a scavenge the lot!

The problem with locals scavenging is all the mines and unexploded bombs every where but when you think about it logically, they were born and raised with mines and UXO (unexploded bombs) all over the place so dodging the red mist is normal, so normal in fact they will just pick it up and move it… Whilst on the ranges I was waiting to fire, sat chilling under the Cam net, we had sentries out and vehicles patrolling. All a sudden from behind the sand berm there was the ominous BOOM! A mortar or grenade… Everyone one jumped up but there was no follow up from any enemy or our sentries, then the sentries started shouting some one to stop! Which meant some one was approaching our position but we couldn’t see for the sand berms round the ranges and the sentries were pushed out a couple of hundred meters… Some one else ran up from the sentry position telling the head sheds to get on the net asking for a Medic. It turned out the sentry had got eyes on 4 people 2 kids 2 adults wondering around about 500m out, the kids looked like they were throwing some thing around and that something turned out to be a mortar or grenade which went off, luckily just Fraging one of the kids I say luckily as if it had gone of when he was holding it which we first thought had happened this would be a different story! As soon as it went off they new they could get medical help from u as all Afghans do, so they came straight for us and the sentry had quite rightly stopped them in the distance even with the obviously injured and bleeding child as they were still a threat to us until the sentry was certain they weren’t armed or strapped with explosives to try and take us all out with. After carrying out the correct procedures to make sure they are not a threat, they were brought in and a medic called out to the boy, he was about 13 and had blast injuries but nowhere near as bad as they could have been…

The same day I was out on sentry while we closed down the ranges before moving out, this is when all the locals know they at any moment will be able to pounce and collect what brass is still left hidden in the sand, although they still can’t come near until we have left so my job as sentry is to keep them at a safe distance. The last major suicide attack causing the most fatality’s to UK troops was a 13 year old boy with a wheel barrow stuffed full of explosives, we all know the threat has no marker, they don’t walk around with a badge saying Suicide Bomber and they come in all shapes, sizes, ages etc. So it makes the reality of detecting suicide bombers even harder. After the commotion with the young lad blowing himself up, the quote of the day seemed to be “watch out there’s exploding kids out there!” Again an example of the dark humour that is needed in the Army, especially in this environment if we took everything we see seriously we’d all need psychiatric treatment before we got going! But that did make me think, yep we’re in Afghanistan and the threat is there, that my have just been UXO the kid picked up but its one more thing from Afghan we get told about but that’s actually real, we’re here and everything else is going to be real as well… On sentry I was scanning the horizon, there were a couple of men about 150m out sat on there haunches, they’d approached me previously and I’d stopped them where they were, they new what to do as all the locals have been getting the same orders from Multi National forces for the last 6 years, they will wait there till we’d gone and they could attack the Brass. All of a sudden about 200m out I saw to young kids running at full pelt towards us with a wheelbarrow, in the space of about 1 second a thousand things went through my head, they couldn’t be a threat they’re kids coming for the brass, this is real we’re in Afghanistan and there is a threat, kids have been used as suicide bombers, what if they don’t stop I’ll have to fire a warning shot, if they don’t stop I’ll have to brass them up (shoot them) they’re only kids, my heart jumped up a few gears and the second to think was over, one of the men sat a couple of hundred meters out had spotted them too and new I’d seen them, I made ready straight away (cocked the weapon so a round is ready to fire as soon as the safety is taken off) if they didn’t stop and I had to fire a warning shot a valuable second and a good 20 – 30m of distance would be covered by the wheelbarrow if I had to cock the weapon before I fired, I shouted “dresh” (Stop in Afghan spelling may be incorrect) the boys saw me and stopped running but still continued to walk, I shouted it again, thinking how close should I let them come before I fire, they continued to walk towards us, I had my weapon in my shoulder and my heart was raising, then the Afghan male who was watching new exactly what I was thinking so he started shouting to the boys who stopped walking and left the wheel barrow where it was….

We’ve started the patrols now in the area around Bastion… In the last 6 days I’ve lost track of the days totally we’ve been out constantly. I went out for 12hrs through the night got back in at breakfast and went straight out till after lunch, another day we went out at 7.30 am and got back in at 4am… and lots of other long patrols over the days as well ranging from 10 – 20hours… its been interesting and tiring and a sign of the next 6 months to come! So I’m strapped in and ready for the ride!

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Patrols has got us out and about, we’ve seen and spoke to the locals. Had a good look at all the compounds in and around the area we patrol and of course seen some of the poppy fields that yield the West’s Heroin supply… Out the south east of Bastion is a river of Poo… the contents of our toilets and considering there are thousands of people here that’s allot of shit! Some Opium farmers have set up their fields along this river as it provides great fertilizer for there poppies… A couple of things that make me chuckle about that, we’re trying to stop the farming of poppies and we’ve inadvertently provided a great piece of land for lots of poppies to grow and second is the poppies that are farmed here and hit the streets in the UK are grown with our shit, so they are not only injecting heroin but our Poo too!


01
May 09

The start to a very different 2009….

This was written before we were mobilised in January and began our training….

The alarm I have to wake me up is probably the most annoying alarm you can have, that horrible loud waar waar waar! The standard everyone seems to have with the one choice of that or the radio but the radio never seems to do the job! It’s not just the noise it’s everything that singular noise represents… a constant daily reminder its 6.20am time to get up and join the rat race, those few seconds or sometimes minutes where you wince at the thought of getting out of your nice warm bed, “why can’t I just stay here, just for today!” Over the last 4 months I’ve been in a different routine each morning, still getting up at the same time but taking a different route, heading to Birmingham instead of Oswestry, same company different job, taking the train instead of driving. I’ve grown to like my new journey I thought I’d hate it when I first considered it but its ok. Although I’m sure I must still be in the honey moon period! But for the moment an hour long train journey gives me time to read, have a snooze and sort my self out ready for the day ahead… Most mornings when I wake up I tell myself there’s only so many days left till the weekend then I can have a nice lie in, although I seem to trade that in at the drop of a hat for a night on the lash and when/if I do finally go to bed I don’t really get a good nights sleep and spend most of the weekend tired any way!

The monotony of life can some times feel tedious and boring leading to a point were I think we all must question what we’re doing with our lives, do we do all we can do are we all we can be, I think its how you approach your life that can make all the difference. I find myself forgetting some times how lucky I am as I’m sure we all do. Just rolling through in autopilot, work and play, work and play, is it the same all the time, No but the most complex of things can become routine if you do it enough… I do allot of things with my life, I’ve got my Job at BT, the TA, we’re doing a lot of music production and performances as P.A.S on the hard dance scene, I also run 2 dance events Invasion and Fuzzy Logic and the great thing is all these things I do with very close friends, I’ve always given everything 110% and worked hard on everything day in day out but recently life’s directions changed and so has my approach…. I’ve been called up to serve in Afghanistan, my regiment 4 Mercian is providing a company of infantry soldiers to be deployed in Helmand province, again it depends how you look at life and what you want out of it, this news has actually for me been great news and i got very excited at the prospect of 6 months in Helmand…. although i’m sure there will be times i look back at this statement and question my thoughts…

These days when my alarm wakes me up I’m thinking about a lot of other stuff, not just the routine rat race stuff… lots of questions, lots of thinking…. Only 2 weeks left, 1 week left, 2 days left in my own bed then in the next 9 months I will see my bed for a total of about 3 weeks… Since I found out we’re going to Afghanistan my priorities in life and planning has all changed some what drastically and in the process my life feels a tad “messy” that’s probably the best way to describe it. When I found out we were definitely going I decided for myself I would just concentrate on work as my career with BT is important to me and as I’m going to be away for a long time I need to work hard right to the last minute… Then I’d also just concentrate on the forthcoming tour of Afghanistan, as reality kicks in decisions have to be made… I no longer put half the effort I should into Fuzzy Logic, Invasion, P.A.S, even the T.A is on the back burner, my philosophy is they’re getting me for the larger part of next year so they can do without me for a few weekends…

As time is now short I don’t want to spend it stressed out and working constantly and all those things cause just that. My time is now spent working in the day and then in the evenings doing physical training or trying to do nothing, which feels strange to me as I’ve never been the type to just do nothing but I want time to do nothing, I want time for me with no thoughts other than what’s going to happen next to Jack Bower or Will Tony ever leave Hollyoaks! I’ve got a lot of thoughts going on in my mind about what I need to sort out, what I need to do and what’s going to happen over the coming year, as well as what I’ll be missing back here. Some time to tune in to what’s coming up not just the tour but the weeks of training before hand, get that out of the way and get on with the job.

The New Year is here, alot of people look at it as a new start and all the jazz but it’s never really meant a lot to me, although this year was different. At midnight everyone was doing the rounds wishing each other all the best and I thought to myself this year is actually going to be totally different to any other and it all starts in just 4 days! A lot of the people who were out, I won’t see until later on in the year and maybe not until I get back from Afghanistan… This New Year for once in my life actually did have some meaning, the end of one chapter and the beginning of what is set to be a very different and interesting chapter of my life….